Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Fight Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, similar to electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with severe discomfort behind a single eye that persists up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records propose unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

Official guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Hailey Cook
Hailey Cook

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